But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you; Not even close; Not even a little bit; Not even at all.

Applying to college has become one of the most stressful things I believe I have ever done and I cant wait until it's all over. I cant wait until I'm in my dorm at were ever I end up, crying my eyes out wishing I was home.
Well maybe not the crying my eyes out part, but I know that is likely to happen.

Anyway, I don't like it and I dont like here, and I dont like waiting. There is only about 8 months left until I leave and that simultaneously feels so far away and so near that I'm not quite sure what to do with myself.

I dont like all this waiting and pouring over detail after endless detail. The only thing that seems to get my mind off of all this stress is a good movie. I've been watching them a lot recently, trying to get away, if only for two hours or so.

But anyway,
Between all of that, loosing good friends, being ignored and feeling awkward...I'm barely able to think up new ideas. Hope that stops. Until then....